Been so tired for the past week, having to wake up before 12 everyday. Not that it’s really that early but the main problem being that I can’t seem to sleep early enough to get sufficient rest. Somehow I’ll just stay up into the night even though I’ve been really really tired through the day.

So late nights and early morning translates to a zombie in the day, which means greater unproductivity (yes i know there’s no such word) in the day. So end up not doing anything at all. Which is bad cos now I only have like 3 weeks more till my HYP report is due and I haven’t really gotten down to writing yet.

I just don’t want to do it. Which is weird cos I liked doing research, or at least I enjoyed it previously. Now I just want it to go away and not have to touch it, which is going to be a problem if I am going to continue with post-graduate studies. For now I’ll just dismiss it as having chosen a bad topic.

Then there’s the shoot. For those who have done it before you’ll know how physically exhausting is, especially when nobody else has any experience. Having to be the director, the DoP and camera operator is bad enough, on top of having to deal with very tried actors and an ambitious script and a very tight schedule. An entire day spent on shooting is just too tiring to do back to back.

Not that making a flim isn’t fun, but the stress comes from being the only person in the group to know how to. Not that it’s their fault but on hindsight we shouldn’t have been too ambitious with such a long narrative.

That said I don’t think I know what to do anymore. Things which I liked are becoming very painful. I don’t want to do anything anymore. Such a torture.