So the year is coming to an end, but it felt like it hadn’t started.

Sure there are things that went on in the past year but it’s all like a blur. Like when you’re on a train and the surroundings wizz by the window. Things do catch your eye but only for that while, and at the end of the trip the only things you remember was having had something, not really remembering what exactly.

2005 was like that.

Maybe if I try hard enough I could actually list down the year’s events but it’s just too difficult to do so. And for what cause, when the way this year is ending is just like the last. It’s like a cycle coming one full revolution, like climbing up a hill only to find yourself sliding back down to where you started.

Or to put it in another way, you might have actually progressed down the road, but then found out that you lost several things during the journey, so much so you can’t really compare if getting there was actually more worth than never starting.

So 2006 is just another new year, and if you are those who say happiness is really what we make it out to be, then I’ll just force a smile a say, Happy New Year to you.

A Bm
Draw me close to You
E A
Never let me go
E/G# D
I lay it all down again
F#m D
To hear You say that I’m Your friend
A Bm
You are my desire
E A
No one else will do
E/G# D
Cause nothing else can take Your place
F#m D
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
A Bm
Help me find a way
E A
Bring me back to You

A E D
You’re all I want
A E D E
You’re all I ever needed
A E D
You’re all I want
Bm E A
Help me know You are near

Had my final semester planned nice and light, with two more modules to go and a pass/fail declaration in hand.

Logged on to the module registration site, started scrolling down the list and I CAN’T FIND THE MODULE LISTED! Where in the world did GEK1031 American Film go? It was there just last year. ARGH.

Went to the module’s IVLE site and it said it’s being offered in Semester 3! Yah this being my final sem I won’t be staying and paying for an extra sem. And modules with fun mid-terms like shooting a short film are a rare find in this part of the world.

Not only that but the other ear-marked module is also not available. Time to take out the gun for some Russian-module-roulette.

So now NUS have to screw up my study life as well.

PS: Ok I confess to sneaking in for the movie screenings last year… but still… )=

Yah I know why Christmas should be jolly. But Christmas this year don’t feel that way.

Despite having more activities this year, it actually feels much sadder than last year’s. And knowing that Christmas is a time to rejoice and how everyone is happy and jolly just makes it worse.

Christmas is all about the love of God, but where is God is all this?

Just came back from a Christmas gathering at one of my aunt’s place, feeling really drained having not slept the night before. It’s an annual thing where the families on my mom’s side meet up at their eldest sister’s place, have dinner/party/bbq and give presents to the children, who now aren’t really children anymore.

This year’s gathering saw more people than the usual crowd. A few cousins who chose to “pon” the last few Christmas decided to turn up today in full force. And we had not-that-distant relatives which I like have never seen before or once so long ago that I forgotten.

Turned out our grandfathers were siblings so that means our parents are cousins so er… well I dunno what that makes us. Anyway that got my grandma talking about marriage between us! How did she get onto that subject at all? Ok so it’s interesting finding out that in order for first cousins to marry, their mothers must both be sisters. Basically you can’t marry into anybody on your father’s side of the family. Well that’s just tradition though I’m not sure it makes a great difference genetically.

Amongst us cousins we have this division into cliques in descending order of our ages, and I happen to be the youngest in the oldest clique of four - the number sufficient for a game of bridge or any common game. There’s always this grouping during any large scale gathering that I guess is due to the closeness to the age, where we’ll just entertain each other while the older adults go yak about the family lineage and blah blah.

Well now that the eldest cousin is married and has a little daughter which everybody fusses over the moment they arrive, and the other two sometimes busy with their boyfriends, I guess it’s beginning to get a little lonely at such gatherings.

Just before reaching home, my parents made a remark on how my cousin’s new boyfriend is much better than the last. I just hate people thinking that way. I mean who are we to judge or compare which is better? I don’t understand why people want to be so kaypo into other people’s business and make such comparisons.

Makes me wonder if my ex-girlfriend family have ever compared me with her current boyfriend, making remarks like “’see he’s much better than that Wai Kay, who was blah blah blah…” Not that they actually do but I really really can’t stand this kind of thinking. I just don’t think it’s fair of anyone else to do that kind of comparison. Who are we to compare? I’d never want my parents to do that kind of comparison between my future girlfriend and my ex, or any other persons, which I don’t think that will be the case.

Haiz, we’re all just humans after all.

For unto us a Child is born,
Unto us a Son is given;
And the government will be upon His shoulder.
And His name will be called
Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

Peace. Christmas is not only about hope but also about peace.

Shalom, may His peace be with you all as we celebrate and receive God’s greatest gift to us all. Merry Christmas y’all.

Congrats to Kai Yang for getting his First Class Honours.

And by God’s grace I passed my Japanese, considering the tutorials I skipped, the oral which I screwed up and completely forgetting the meaning of every verb in one of the sections in the finals, though Xiao Hei will want to differ.

About my other only graded module, let’s just say that my CAP dropped a little. For fear of being misunderstood, just ask me if you wanna know exactly.

Christmas is just a few days away, and look at my current bank account.

When is my pay going to come in?! Still waiting for it to credit into my account. So until then, nothing much I can do.

Just so you know if you dun get anything this year, or get it late. My apologies.

PS: My account number is shown, so you know what to do